New Year’s Musings

The temperature slips below zero and the wind picks up. An east wind straight from the frozen belly of Russia, my Mormor tells me. The trees clap their branches beneath the grey clouds, which bloom and hurry in a brooding dance across the sky.

The scene is set. Costume on: coat buttoned, gloved hands plunged deeply into pockets, hat pulled down over the ears and hood thrown over the top. I am ready for a cold show beyond the protection of cosy windows and walls, as the front door slaps shut behind me. A chilly wisp of air gets in beneath the scarf. Pull the shoulders up towards the ears, turn the face westward, quicken the pace to get the blood flowing, and onward I plunge into the dark grey afternoon.

The Russian wind quickly drains the feeling from my fingers and toes and I look forward to an upcoming hill to raise my heart-rate. I plough up the slope and then decide to turn around and go back down so I can climb up it again. Reaching the crest for the second time, I can feel my digits once more and I know I will be fine as long as I keep moving. I pause only a moment to gaze around at the rolling fields and naked forests, and the thatched and terracotta rooftops dotting the Danish countryside, before striding onward.

Straight from a warm and balmy Spanish winter into the chilly, windswept breast of northern Europe. Spain’s winter has been one of the warmest in ages, and so has Denmark’s; but its “warm” winter still bites, and today the temperature has finally dropped to a more typical position for the season. It is certainly the coldest I have experienced since leaving Canada a year ago, but I haven’t let it stop me. I roam the paths that wind through bare, open forests and walk by glowing windows and twinkling white lights still up from Christmas. I even say hello to the sea, hiding from the forceful gusts beside a small shed, watching the powerful waves rush towards the shore in a ceaseless white wheel of foam.

Spain now feels far away indeed, but I know that when I board a plane at the end of the month for the long haul to Australia, I will partially be expecting to fly back to Sevilla. It will feel strange to leave Europe after nearly a year living and travelling here. There is so much diversity to explore on this relatively small continent, and within each country as well. The modest slice we have seen has already proved more than I’ve been able to keep up with on my blog, particularly during the last month of backpacking and Workawaying (volunteering in exchange for room and board) in northern Spain. I certainly cannot cover all those experiences in one blog post, though perhaps in this year’s writing I will revisit some of the beautiful towns, cities and landscapes that we travelled through in 2015.

What I will say now is that both Robin and I feel very grateful for our year living in Spain. We learned so much along the way—about other ways of life, about Spanish language, about each other and ourselves—and spent many lovely times with old and new friends. Our circumstances came with their set of challenges, as most circumstances do, but all in all we had so much fun. Looking back on 2015, we’ve also come to the satisfying realisation that we’ve accomplished something we both dreamed about for years. Living in Spain has given us more than many joyful memories; it has increased our confidence in our ability to make our dreams reality, and that is really something.

Now last year is over and a new one has begun. What will 2016 bring, and what will we make of it? As I roam the frosted paths of the small Danish town of Espergærde—the same paths I roamed many a time when this place was my home for a year, nearly a decade ago—I notice how the feet remember, carrying me this way and that without need for pause. My mind is free to wonder at the winter world around me, how it has changed and how it has stayed the same, and how the very fact that I know this place means I have made dreams happen before. I had a goal to live in Denmark, my mother’s homeland, to learn Danish and keep my dual citizenship, and I did that too. Why do I not stop to appreciate such things more often? Probably because I have a habit of jumping to the next goal as soon as one is finished, hardly noticing what I’ve done or taking a moment to enjoy it, running from the fear that what I do—who I am, even—is never enough.

Not today. I take a moment to thank myself for pursuing those wanderlust dreams. Not all of us have the need to travel, but for some, the outer journey is part of our inner journey. Happy 2016 to all, and happy travels, within and without!

Some

Where to go from here
The moon was a Cheshire Cat’s grin
And then some
The stars were dancing very wildly
A little too intensely if you wanted to sit quietly
Help me
Achy achy heart taking up too much space
Lungs pressed in-between the slots of the ribs
Night’s cloak rippling at the edges
And descending silently upon the day
The blue luminescence of twilight receding
Gently underground until dawn
Dusk reigns
Silver Cheshire Cat teeth
Gleaming
Heart banging and trying to get out
Trying to fly and sparkle like the whirling stars
Velvety tree limbs reach towards the blanket of sky
Stark against the last of the day’s light
Soon they will disappear beneath Night’s billowing cape
Slip away
Help me run across this open field
And find freedom
Stuck behind a smile
I want freedom
The silver scythe blade moon
And winking stars
All so enticing
And then some
Set me free
Beneath the wild dance of the night.

Written February 2013

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Gibaja, Spain, 2015

Somewhere Different

As we stepped out of the airport, the sight of purple mountains in the distance greeted us, reaching up suddenly from the flat, red earth that stretched out in every direction. The sun was setting, adding to the crimson glow of the land around us, as we waited for the bus to take us into the city centre.

We caught the bus to the Medina, the bustling old quarter of Marrakech, Morocco. It was fully dark by the time we arrived, and to reach the inner workings of streets and alleyways where our hostel was located, we crossed Jamaa el Fna, a large square which is apparently the busiest plaza in Africa. My head swivelled back and forth as my senses were seized by the myriad colours, lights, sounds and smells around me. Clusters of bejewelled candle holders glimmered with flames within; groups of drummers and other musicians played rhythmic songs from within tightly-knit circles of observers; mysterious glowing objects in various neon colours leaped up into the air and floated back down (what were those things?!).

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There were stands and shops selling everything from dried fruits to cells phones, piles of colourful, fragrant spices to silver jewellery, incense and perfumes to sunglasses. There were also wandering salesmen, offering shoeshines and cigarettes, and wandering saleswomen too, targeting other women to have their hands decorated with henna. One tried to offer me a “free sample” with a surprising amount of force, and I had to give quite a tug to free my hand. Every once and a while a man would whisper “hashish” as he passed us by. We could hear the call of “Salam! Hola! Bonsoir! Hello!” coming from every direction, and see the waving hands and smiles of what felt like every city dweller trying to sell us something. “No, no, shukran (thank you)!”, we would call back, and continue walking, as many people kept on calling while others switched tactics and enthusiastically entreated us to come back “tomorrow” or “next time!”


Every time we pulled out our blurry little map print-out, lacking the names of most small streets, someone would offer to help us, but we were too paranoid to accept—having heard that help never comes for free—and so promptly got lost. Our hostel host had emailed us directions as well, but just one confusing sentence threw us off the scent early on and had us wandering nervously up and down the wrong street, looking for a side lane that wasn’t there. Too narrow for cars, scooters whizzed through the pedestrian crowds at dangerous speeds, and we quickly learned to get out of the way at the sound of any approaching put-put-put. The overwhelming smell of two-stroke exhaust billowed in the wake of each moped, making me cough, while my backpack straps were digging into my shoulders and my hands were cramping up from gripping my purse so tightly. We were both getting more nervous, overwhelmed, and hungry, taking it out on one another in snappy, anxious bursts. At last I worked up the courage to dust off my long-neglected French in order to ask for directions, and a friendly woman in a shop helped us get back on track.

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Twenty minutes later, we had found our hostel, dumped our bags, and set out once more to find a restaurant recommended by our host which did excellent veggie tajines. We sat on a rooftop terrace bundled in our coats and sweaters, looking out over the non-stop bustle of Jamaa el Fna down below, sipping mint tea and munching tajine and couscous.

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Despite feeling much better with the help of our dinner, we were both exhausted and went to bed early that night. The next day I felt more resilient, though I still found myself rather nervous while dodging motor bikes and saying “No, shukran, non, merci,” and shaking my head a hundred times a day. I find it hard enough to say no at the best of times, so it was quite exhausting. We soon realised, however, that despite the intensity of the sales pitch, people were quick to smile, and some were quite happy to help without asking anything in return, such as the shopkeeper who gave us a small bag of salt for free because we didn’t want to buy a large container.

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The Medina is full of crooked, winding alleys, both open-air and covered bazaars (called souks), and the commercial areas are always packed with locals, tourists, mopeds, donkeys, etc. But as soon as you take a side street off one of the main alleys, you leave the din behind. Our hostel was located but a moment’s walk from one of the main souks, but we couldn’t hear any of the commotion from there. We usually spent a portion of the afternoon on the rooftop terrace, enjoying the sunbathed peace and quiet, and later watching the sun sink behind a the tower of a mosque in the west. The colours spilled out over Marrakech’s low skyline, and as darkness deepened, we heard the first call to prayers ring out. Morocco is a Muslim country and the call to prayers sounds at least five times a day from the loudspeakers fixed to the top of each mosque tower. It is impressive to hear the call from below and see people file into the prayer halls, removing their shoes as they enter, but to hear it from the top of a roof is something else entirely. From the ground, you really only hear the call that is closest to you; from the same level as the towers themselves, you hear all of them at once, as they boom and echo out of sync like wolves calling to each other around the city. Deep male voices chant the call in a cascade of sound; one starts, then another, and soon they are all resounding in a powerful wash of eerie yet enchanting notes from every direction, until only a few are left, then one last call all on its own, and then silence again.

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We left Marrakech on Saturday morning, ambling comfortably through Jamaa el Fna, quite a contrast to the anxious manner of our arrival. The square is just as busy by day, simply lacking in the eye-catching contrast of glowing lights against the darkness. On the other hand, the sunlight reveals other sights, such as snake charmers with suspiciously docile cobras and rattlesnakes at their feet, and rows of orange juice stands that shine brighter by the light of day. There are 63 orange juice stands in total (they are numbered), and all the juice men call and smile and wave at you to buy their juice as you walk by. The prices are exactly the same in each stand, and they all offer fresh orange, lemon, grapefruit and pomegranate juice, so you often just end up going to whichever one is closest to you, keeping your eyes averted as you disappoint the vendors on either side of your chosen stand. But I have a hard time saying no, as I said, so we would have a juice at one stand only to have another one a little further along (and sometimes a third on the other side of the square).

That last morning, mulling over which orange juice stand(s) to patronize, I reflected on how grateful I was to have had the opportunity to experience this city.  Morocco is probably the most different country I have ever been to, compared to my homeland, although sometimes its market culture reminded me of Central America. One hears a lot of fearful news about the Muslim culture these days, and I don’t appreciate the prejudice that permeates much of it. However, I couldn’t help notice how nervous we both were at the beginning of our sojourn in Marrakech. Despite our aims to be critical thinkers, the fear had weaseled its way in and made us a little paranoid. Spending time in a Muslim country reminded us that the vast, vast majority of Islam followers are simply going about their own business and leaving others to go about theirs, just like the majority of people in any country around the world. Most of us just want to take care of our families, earn our living, enjoy time with our loved ones, eat good food, share a laugh, etc, and no culture deserves to be demonized because of the unbalanced few who violate the lives of others. A few days in Morocco was not only a very rich sensory experience, but a reminder that humans often react to difference with fear; however, a bit of patience not only reveals that there is not nearly as much to fear as we originally thought, but also that we’re not nearly as different.

Noche Sevillana

The evening sun shines warm on my face while the breeze flitters with cold fingers against the back of my neck. The grass is tall and uncut, bright and luminous in the light of the low-lying sun, stirring and shivering in the cool currents of air. I sit in a nest of tall blades with a tree at my back, a small green and orange cloud of delicate leaves above me, rustling not only in the wind but with the fitful hopping and pecking of tiny brown birds with tiny black eyes, who seem to know a lot more than they say.

The flies land on everything, from my bare arms to the trembling blades of grass. The river just beyond me has begun to shimmer with the silver and black swirls cast by the angle of the day’s last sunshine. It seems to be rippling towards me as though I sat on the shore of a lake and not a riverbank. And all of a sudden, my paper is bathed in a blue shadow, which is simply the lack of yellow as the sunbeams slip behind the buildings and instant goosebumbs arise on my arms. All at once, we evening park dwellers reach for our cardigans and jackets, look about at the sudden change in light, tuck in our shirts and draw our limbs a little closer in on ourselves.

The hue of the grass is an entirely different green and the breeze seems a little more insistent now. The surface of the river has turned dark green and white, reflecting the sky above and the trees along the bank. Above me the birds still dance about in the sun, but the glow in the west is sinking quickly as the sun somewhere out of sight brings dawn to other lands, leaving the night to claim us. But in the first moments of the sweet liminal space between light and dark, I pull my legs in towards me, balancing my notebook atop my knees, and breathe in the grassy dusk air in thirsty gulps.

My sweater is thin and soon I will wander the cobblestone streets back to my sloping old flat and leave the park to the Spaniards. The twilight will deepen beyond my balcony window and the dinner din will echo in the streets below. Later I will slip into my jacket and go out to meet them. The contrast between my quiet afternoon writing time and the lively noche sevillana feels the same as the contrast between the night and day reflecting on the river.

Sweet river, what a faithful friend you have been; this is the hour I will miss you most.

The city itself is bright and beautiful at all hours, but perhaps I will miss it most at night, when the lanterns illuminate the alleys and the cathedral towers, and laughter and clinking glasses echo through the streets. A week more here before I leave and I miss you already. But tonight I join you.

With my chilly arms it’s time to pack up. Hasta luego, noche sevillana.

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¡Madrid!

I have been living in Spain for over nine months now, and I was beginning to feel a bit sheepish when people asked me if I had been to Madrid and I kept answering no. Well, at last I can say yes, and have much to say about it to boot!

Before delving into it, however, let me mention that when Robin and I were choosing a place to live in Spain, he initially suggested Madrid, because the Madrileños (people of Madrid) speak in a clear “Castilian” accent. Also, there is definitely an allure to living in a country’s capital city. But I was keen to live somewhere smaller, and ultimately we both chose Sevilla for a variety of reasons (tapas, flamenco, affordability, Moorish influence, etc). But I must admit that, somewhere between my not-so-thorough investigations into Spain and a friend’s disappointment with Madrid, I somehow got the impression that it was a rather cold city—big, grey, a little dangerous, somewhat sterile-looking. Well, I can now say that I was entirely wrong. Madrid is a mighty cool city indeed, and I had a wonderful time there.

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We arrived late at night by train, greeted by a brisker temperature than that we were used to, as we made our way out of the main station, Atocha. The impressive railway station was the first thing to catch my eye, and the fact that the buildings were taller than in Seville, the streets wider, and the architecture in general more like other western European cities I have been to (no Roman and/or Arab features on Catholic cathedrals, for example). Though lacking in Andalucía’s unique style, the next day’s explorations revealed Madrid to abound in its own charm: stately and Lavapiéselegant, yet full of quirky twists and turns, and a bustling blend of different neighbourhoods all within walking distance. Madrid is a hilly city too, which is something I really appreciate. Hills add mystery to a place; you never know what will appear over the crest, and downhill curves fill me with eagerness to find out what lies around the bend. The neighbourhood of Lavapiés was particularly charming in this regard, made up of many sloping cobble streets, all peppered with restaurants and bars and al fresco dining.

Malasaña also proved a lovely neighbourhood to wander through, with a central pedestrian street and several bright plazas in which to have lunch and an afternoon brew. The city centro had much to offer as well, including the grand Plaza Mayor and one particularly appealing hilltop plaza with a lovely food market, a sun-bathed patio, and a downhill crescent street where the very building-fronts seemed to relax backward against the structures behind them, gently concave like a person leaning on a wall.

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The area of la Latina was little lower in stature and narrower of street, and most of the roads were lined with cosy looking restaurants and bars. The lanes then opened up into a plaza, in the middle of which there was a sunken concrete park walled inA funky plaza, La Latina by plywood, which reminded us a lot of Berlin in its funky use of (what I assumed to be) a once-industrial urban space. As one might imagine, the people of Madrid also varied greatly in style and aspect, a pleasantly colourful reminder that central and northern Spain are generally less traditional than the southern regions of the country.

Another impressive part of Madrid, not be overlooked, was el Retiro, the large park near the central train station, which my Spanish teacher described as “the lung of the city”. The word retiro in this context means retreat, hideaway, or refuge, all of which suit the enormous space very well, especially for someone like me, who, although fascinated by cities, needs to get away from that hustle and bustle regularly in order to connect with nature. Perhaps spoiled by having grown up with the forested mountain and rugged west coast shore at a stone’s throw from my El Retirohouse, I do not find a manicured park as recharging as the untamed wild, but it definitely makes a huge positive difference to the atmosphere of a city, and wandering through el Retiro was a highlight. We enjoyed witnessing it in all its autumnal glory, alight with deep reds and oranges. We also saw several interesting structures in the park, including el Palacio de Cristal, or glass palace, which was aptly named, looking like an elegant cross between a gigantic greenhouse and an atrium.

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We ate well on our holiday too. Madrid is bit more expensive than Sevilla, but there is also a lot more variety, and because of that we did not actually end up eating many Spanish meals. Spain boasts an impressive cuisine to be sure, and we appreciate it, but having grown up either in or near the multicultural cities of Melbourne and Vancouver respectively, Rob and I do miss eating food from around the world. So while we did enjoy some Spanish dishes (the pimientos del padron—small green peppers fried in coarse salt—were particularly delicious), we also really enjoyed eating some Indian curries and pad Thai.
Plaza en el centroBesides eating, drinking, and exploring the lovely neighbourhoods of Madrid, we of course visited some of its famous galleries, including el Museo del Prado and el Museo Nacional Centro de Arte Reina Sofia. We wandered for hours through the enormous buildings, which boasted vast collections of the old and the new respectively. In the Prado, I particularly enjoyed the paintings by Goya, and in Reina Sofia, by Dali; I was also very impressed by the sight of Picasso’s Guernica in real life, which took up a whole wall of its own.

With three and a half days to discover Madrid, I certainly could have spent more time there, but I enjoyed myself fully and saw enough to be quite captivated by the city. Knowing what I now know, would I have thought differently when Rob suggested Madrid for our year away? Perhaps I would have, or at the very least I would have given it more serious consideration. But I remain happy with our choice to live in Sevilla. It really has offered us that “quintessential Spanishness” we were after. It still does, of course, though not for much longer; in three to four weeks we’ll be on the road again, heading north to finish up our year in Spain in the country’s verdant, uppermost provinces. Since we will probably fly or bus straight there, I am very grateful to have had the chance to visit Madrid this past week. It is a city I could most definitely visit again, with much to offer in terms of culture, a big “hideaway” park, and lots of intriguing, hilly neighbourhoods to wander.

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Hogar Crepuscular

(English translation follows)

El río brilla
con los últimos rastros
de la luz del día.

La gente corre y camina por la ribera
grita y se ríe
anda en bici y llama a sus perros.

El aire está cálido y suave contra la piel,
turbio como el agua del río
con tinta de rosa en el oeste.

El sol duerme ya
una astilla de la luna
se ha levantado sigilosamente en su lugar
mientras los pájaros buscan refugio en los árboles
nada más que siluetas negras contra el cielo.

Este no es mi hogar
pero a la vez
sí lo es, y más ahora que nunca.

Cuando el día se rinde
tierno y digno
a la noche

y los dos pasan un momento unidos
crean otro mundo en el cual no hay países ni diferencias
y todos somos de la misma familia
compartiendo la respiración del crepúsculo.

¿Quién soy yo y quién eres tú
cuando la tierra se pone tan misteriosa
entre la luz y la oscuridad
si no los hijos e hijas de este planeta verde y azul?

Crecí muy lejos de aquí
pero reconozco mi hogar
en el crepúsculo.

Aun el reloj deja de contar
y el mundo se revela a ser mucho más
que las divisiones que creamos durante el día

en este momento
antes de que caiga la noche voluble
estamos todos juntos
en casa.

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Home at Dusk

The river shines
with the last traces
of the day’s light.

The people run and walk on the riverbank
yell and laugh
ride their bicycles and call their dogs.

The air is warm and soft against the skin
turbid like the river water
dyed pink in the west.

The sun sleeps already
a sliver of the moon
has risen silently in its place
as the birds search for refuge in the trees
nothing more than black silhouettes against the sky.

This is not my home
but at the same time
it is, and more now than ever.

When the day surrenders
tender and dignified
to the night

and the two share a moment united
they create another world in which there are no countries or differences
and we are all the same family
sharing twilight’s breath.

Who am I and who are you
when the earth turns so mysterious
between light and darkness
if not the sons and daughters of this green and blue planet?

I grew up far away from here
but I recognize my home
at dusk.

Even the clock stops counting
and the world reveals itself to be much more
than the divisions we create during the day

in this moment
before the fall of capricious night
we are all together
at home.

Evening Ballet Class Through a Window

Pink and light as flamingo feathers
Floating on the hot air current
Above the creamy white radiator
Along the wall where they wait

One at a time
Little slippered feet
Soft leather soles
Across the worn hardwood floor
Little arms clad in white
Reaching skyward

Beyond the window panes
Night begins to press against the glass
Cool air a twilight blue

Pink tulle fluttering up and down
Smooth faces but gleaming eyes
One at a time
A tall teacher in black and blue
Gliding to and fro

Breath like a puff of smoke
In the night air
Fogs the window
A blur of soft pastels

Starlight begins to speckle
The cobble stone street
Until the droplets run into pools
Of warm yellow light
Cast from the studio lamps within

The hallway door opens
Mothers collecting their daughters
Young and yet unguarded
Coats over leotards
Home to dinner

Night has fallen
The evening walker strides
Through the street
Pebbles crunching
Boots and stone
The yellow studio
Shrinking behind
As the stars swell above
Home to dinner

More Journeys: Lisbon and Edinburgh

Fall has blown into the north countries on cool wings, picking the crisp red leaves off the trees and gathering them together in wet heaps on rainy afternoons. Here in southern Spain, autumn has thus far revealed itself to be more like a lovely, Canadian west coast summer than anything else, albeit shorter in daylight hours. The streets here are filled with people again, enjoying the bright afternoons and balmy evenings, and the city echoes with the din of voices, the clinking of glasses, and the scrape of cutlery over small tapas plates. Rob and I are back in the Sevilla we dreamed about.

But we are literally back here as well, having recently been out of the country. Our summer has actually turned out to be a rather adventuresome one. You might think that this would have lent itself to more blog writing with all that material, but in reality I haven’t been able to keep up a weekly post due to all the action (with a bit of lying around and roasting in-between travels and visits—the slothful effect of that summer heat can’t be underestimated!). But things are starting back up again, from giving English lessons as students return from holidays to reestablishing good yoga habits. In getting the blog-writing gears up and running as well, I feel as though a little review of the past couple months’ adventures is in order.

After we got back from Germany and Denmark, only a couple of weeks passed before we climbed onto a toilet-less but air-conditioned bus to Lisbon, or Lisboa in Portuguese (it sounds like “leesh-boa” ), which we discovered to be a charming city. The hills reminded us of San Francisco, or maybe it was the great red bridge that was designed by the same architect who built the Golden Gate, DSCF5056and used the exact same design and style in Lisbon, resulting in an essentially identical sister bridge. Either way, we love San Francisco so the association was a good one. We walked a lot, exploring beautiful winding alleys, numerous old churches (including a stunning roofless cathedral), and the lookouts dotted all over the city, where we would often join the locals in a beer while enjoying the views.

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Lisbon lies along a huge river, so wide it feels like an ocean strait, which was a lovely reminder of home. It was not only the city’s beauty, however, that left us dreaming of our time there after we had left; it took a while before I stopped longing for Portuguese pastry! The pastel de nata, or pastel de Belem, is a famous wee tart—flaky, crispy on the outside with the smoothest creamy filling—that had us hooked pretty quickly. The first day Rob and I tried one with a morning coffee. The coffee was good and the pastel was delicious, so we went back to the same café the next day and this time each ate one and a half. Next time it was two each, and when we were joined by one of our best friends who was travelling in Europe, we all were eating at least three a day. I did feel pasteis de nataa bit sick after this new practice (not surprising considering I’m allergic to dairy, and incidentally I have since decided not to make any more exceptions for ethical/environmental reasons as well my health), but that certainly didn’t taint the memory of the famously scrumptious pastel de nata.

The three of us did visit one more place in Portugal before heading to Sevilla together, but it’s not worth dwelling on… I’ll just say that Lagos is packed with partying tourists in August, and depending on your (overpriced) hostel, bedbugs too.

Once in Sevilla, we all settled in together for a week or two, partaking in activities such as: washing all the bed sheets and trying not to scratch ourselves raw; a bit of street wandering and a bit more laying low in the flat as the day’s heat passed; eating tapas and searching for Portuguese bakeries; a few nights in a nearby town camping and lying on the beach; visiting with some of Rob’s friends from Australia who also were travelling in Spain; and just enjoying each other’s company.

When Rob and I first found ourselves alone in our flat again we didn’t quite know what to do with ourselves. Goodbyes are sad of course, and I didn’t have many English lessons to teach with most of my students still on vacation. Furthermore, there was no sign of the cooler days I associate with a coming fall, and the heat was still too oppressive to feel like getting out much. But we didn’t have long before we were off again on another trip, this time to Scotland.

We spent most of our time in beautiful Edinburgh. The Old Town and New Town—divided by a leafy, valley park—hint at the interesting history of this city, the remnants of which can be seen all over the place. The castle looks down from the highest point of the city centre, perched atop the end of the Royal Mile. I like to recall it as it looks in the evening, when the last, low rays of the September sunshine turn rich and yellow, and the castle is the last place illuminated before it is wrapped in chilly shadow.

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Edinburgh feeds a writer’s imagination, with its narrow closes and medieval churches (stepping into St. Giles cathedral felt like transporting back in time, where I half expected to see Arthur’s knights bowing their head in prayer before riding off to battle). The Writers’ Museum in Lady Stair’s Close certainly helps as well, where one can get lost in the life stories of Burns, Scott, and R. L. Stevenson, easily imagining how the city looked in their times.

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Edinburgh is a place I have been before, and holds many fond memories for me. It has symbolized a place of friendship for me, associated with cosy dinners and conversation, laughter among old and new friends, and this visit happily preserved these warm traditions.

So, we are returning to Sevilla filled up with the glow of good times, and we have certainly appreciated our welcome into sunny, perfectly warmed days and festive moonlit nights. October is now underway, which means we have been living in Spain for nine months now! It seems that time made a dash for it during all these comings and goings. Oh well, así es—we had better stay put for the rest of the Sevilla chapter.

Ready or Not, Here I Come

I’m dreaming of a place I knew
with red arbutus bark cracked and peeling
writing ancient messages with modern pens
imagining the pens were feathers
dipped in ink

I’m remembering a forest I loved
filled with faeries and elves
English-speaking animals who were my friends
trees that spoke softly in my head
in perfect sync

I loved those days
Playing in the waves for hours
Dancing round the living room to the Nutcracker
Dreaming up games with magical powers
I loved those days

I’m thinking of a time I knew
when fear had a shape I could name
the sound of the waves so loud on the beach
it must be dinosaurs on their way
so run and hide

I’m reflecting on a song I loved
that could vanquish almost any fright
warm hands that tucked me safely out of reach
of all glowing eyed monsters and the tricks
they always tried

I loved those days
Imagination gave vivid life to fears
Sometimes they ran wild but they could be healed
With touch and a sweet wash of tears
I loved those days

I’m longing for a time I knew
when life was more simple and free
the days smiled easily both wild and kind
no need to rush off, time was
gentle and slow

I’m wishing for a time I loved
awakening untamed each morning
with no unnamed beast inside my mind
spurring me onward, though where
I never quite know

I loved those days
Joy bloomed unchoked by invasive species
It blossomed at everything and nothing
My self felt whole and not in pieces
I loved those days

Yes I loved those days
when no formless shadows
at the edge of my thoughts
gathered like rainclouds

Better do something

Yes I loved those days
when no tugboat engine
whirring loud and hot
filled me with pressure

Better do something

Do something
get something done
but nothing is ever enough

Be someone
a race to be run
but time is never enough

I’m dreaming of a place I knew
where climbing a tree cracked and peeling
was a matter of deep satisfaction
the thrill of climbing higher over bark
so smooth and rough

I’m remembering a forest I knew
where I danced like the sun through the leaves
to love life was a natural reaction
alone with the beautiful earth, just being me
was enough

I loved those days
The limitlessness of the mind
The heart and body’s love of play
We are earthlings free and wild
We knew this magic as a child
And I will search until I find
The heart-deep urge to say
I love these days
I love these days

A Storm Blew in to a Hot Dry City

A storm blew in to a hot dry city
A storm flew in with thunderous wings
A storm blue cloud so heavy and pretty
With a rumbly voice the thunderclaps sing

With a searing might the lightning strikes
With a click to their heals the people scurry
With a wild daylight that looks like night
A storm blew in with a crackling fury

The clouds split their seams
The drops fall big and fat
The thunder still screams
At each human, dog, and cat

At each corner they all huddle
At each flash they all shudder
At each doorstep shines a puddle
The boats let down their rudders

Soon the city is filled with canoes
Soon the city streets are like rivers
Soon the city flotsam accrues
And the city’s a-shake with the shivers

And the thunder’s so loud it will crack the sky
And the water’s so high that whirlpools spin
And the babies and children will cry and cry
A storm blew in, a storm blew in!

A storm blew in to shake the town
A storm blew in and flooded the streets
A storm blew in and they thought they would drown
But their boats formed yet a sturdy fleet

But their spirits held despite the storm
But the dogs paddled bravely on
But the cats hid under blankets warm
And through the clouds a sun-ray shone!

And the thunder faded to a whisper
And the flood drained quickly out to sea
And the cats and dogs dried their whiskers
People wrung their hats with glee

People looked round at the mess left then
People formed clean-up crews and committees
People, though, would always remember when
A storm blew in to a hot dry city!

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